Things Will Become Better , Maybe ?

是我做错了吗?

2011-01-23T11:49:00.001+08:00

Tis week suck shit.
or mayb you're right; tis month suck shit.
i dunno wth w everyone and wthh w me.
i tot it was becos of some personal probs, bt still, its not. bcos aft tt, its still th same.

sch. you may tink its best, bt i tink it suck. i tot. sch reopen, doesnt make any diff bcos tt was you. bt i realise, you've change. change back t who you were. sch jus doesnt rocks fo me now. future i dunno. mayb trying t smile t ppl? mayb tryna make ppl laugh? bt, deep inside, i know, i aint laughing. im jus laughing w tears. not tears w joy. bt tears of melancholy mayb?

im tired. bt i dunno im mentally tired, or physically tired. bt all i know is im tired. how i wish i could sleep whole day and no nid t face th world , you, w fear, w anger, w sad-ness.
bt i cant. bcos i nid t wakeup and face th world or you, hoping, jus hoping, t face w happiness. i wokeup. bcos im hoping sth special, hoping sth important, hoping sth fo myself.

isnt it wad everyone does? wokeup in th morning jus fo hope.

everyone jus hoping t wakeup and see sth bright in their life. hoping t see their love ones. hoping t go fo a exciting party. hoping t laugh. hoping t cry. hoping t do wadever stuff they feel their rearlreal happy.

bt sometimes, tis hope, can suddenly splashes and crashes t th ground. can you imagine tt? imagine tt one day, when you wokeup, open your eyes, see tings ard you, bt you feel nothing. Nothings at all. how fearful is tt? t feel nth fo a day, nth fo your life. No hope, no cure. aren't you afraid tt tis day would arrive in your life? if you dont, i do.

wheres my hope?
my hope, was you..

I can't feel th word 'happy' anymore.

2011-01-15T22:01:00.002+08:00

失败

2011-01-15T15:25:00.001+08:00

为什么人会感觉到 ' 失败' 这两个字?

因为你没有让我觉得到我成功了.

2011-01-13T18:12:00.000+08:00

okay, mayb i should start t blog again bcos it looks so fun again ~

Lifeless me. yea, i cant continue in tis way. i aint normal and i dunno why ~
trying.. bt when im realise im AMANDA, den im not again. SUCK ME :O

mayb pms? cant be. even pms, i cant use it as an excuse like you do ~ whahahah ~

Happy birthday to YONGSIM ~ <3
Wish wish all your dreams come reaaaal cute and pretty as me okok! haha! <3 =)

i dun blog bcos i've got nth to post and im superb lazy and YOU DUN POST. so chicken. bt looking back, its so freaaking nice =)
ohh & dam my hair. i want my red back. can see red. BT i wan MORE RED. manymany red. Greedy. everyone is. so, dun worry (:

hows school? ppl asked~
i said, i hate history :O. superb boring. 2periods of hist really gna hang me. ima gna ask fo a switch of hist to geo. so i wont die there. good fo me (:

so many things happening, and i jus feel nth. i dun wanna feel nth bt i wan feel sth. sth which make me happy. and tt, makes me feel ima surviving. cos god's gna take you away anytime, anyday. and i dun wanna go genting. seriously. i wannt go KL (:

okay, ima gna train my apes. so tt tt duck gna lose me wahhha ~ (:
hey. watch me~

okay, seriously jus... NTH. nth t post. 2pid manxcz.

yes, i want tt hair.

Maid : ' eat biscuit, dun drop on th sofa.
Sis : ' oh drop all th sofa? '
M : DUN DROP ON TH SOFA. IM NOT JOKING.
S : ohh i tot you said drop all th sofa.

absloutely idiots ahahaha~

You're not perfect, bt all i wan and needed

2010-12-30T15:10:00.001+08:00

-

i love every thought abt you okay.
even jus anything happens, piece of my heart will still b yours.
loves.

因为我早就想好要留在誰的身旁

<3

2010-11-28T01:22:00.000+08:00

yea tts right! ima back from thai~
all i can say is, i did enjoy half of e time and i absolutely didnt enjoy half of e time.
cos screw damn bedbug. yes, seriously.
they jus make me look lik an monster & everyone impression of me was like....... ....................
wth. yes tts right. wth.

so went to see doc yesterday w baby ~
yea , so thnks fo accompany~ <3
and so, found out secret yea xiaokeai? ima flat, ima dumb, all bcos of tt = =
okay alright so, doc says......

' All you nid to do next time is , stay in a 5 star hotel '

yea great (: im fate to live in a good life (:

okay so, tt freaking bedbug make me lika monster and i didnt seriously enjoy some of e shopping things.
ima like so ....
pekcek w everything and yes, EVERYTHING. - dun make me you prick.
yes so, ver xinku mummy :O
cos she's th one who keep on tolerating my rubbish. cos @tt time, i dun tink wad i say wad i do anymore. ima selfish @tt point of time. so , *handsup ; not my fault ~

okay so, of cos go lots of temple and which is great (:
and yea i lazy explain there alr. you wanna know?
go and get a ticket and fly there den (:

and yea, one more thing,
things there are cheap ~
okay done.
you yourself see thru pic and knows wad going on den ~
ahaaaa ~

okay!
yea ~ tallest building in thai ~
84storey~
sg? 72~

soso, mummy bought me there cos she promised!
she promised to bring me to sg tallest building, which is 72 on my bday ~
bt she break me >:
so now she mean it ~
mummy's best :D :3

so, its a buffet.

Jenny Aunty are you okay?
hahahaha! You're cute ~ swearswear*

Floating Market :O

okay ! how cool they those elephant can b !
soccer? war? dance? HANDSTAND?!?!
shittt ~ i do tt , i break my head.
bt they're awesome!

okay done.

soso, Luckystar came to my house yesterday and so , miss me aye :P i know iknow ~ ahhaaa!

okay, so , 2pid skin . redish mark all over da place ~

good fo me :/

damm,

Another roller coaster interest?

Mayb not tis time. cos tt interest cant b back anymore. i try, its not back ~

mayb jus one more ting, and den ima good.

; my indecidesive .

Someone tell me wad to do ~ tyvm ~

你那么爱她, 为什么不把她留下?

2010-11-18T19:42:00.004+08:00

Its me ,

started it,

so ima gna end it nicely and properly.

okay, soso, early in da morning , went to somewhere, and yea, takecare there (': <3

so, got my hair cuttedddddd~

and some said its weird ~ bt some said no different ~ bt its gna b fine aye? hahha! *console - self abit yea. bt somtimes, jus wondering. Comfort-self its jus a... , consolation prize. so, you cant get big prize. somesort of pointless? no , not, make you better (:

soso, *excited~ *excited~ tonite!

Red's mine (: finally yaknow. b4 th holiday ,i been asking and praying and remind ~ :/

and great! you promised (: you da best (:

mummy's always best ! (: no matter how, you still best ! haaaaa

alright so, on tues, go 4gu's house to eat their manymanymany years of anniver ~ ahhh, sweet~ long~ (:

Jiaqian's cute (: always and always ~

SenSen's gna hav her baby on tonite! excited Samantha ~

Ahma house buffet on yesterday ~

nice aye?

i want my cake lidat too ehs baby ~ LOL :P

okay, work on yesterday, work on tomoro and work on sat, rest on next week and start to work again on fri next week (: $$$$$ goes my pocket. and better amanda, better, dun go out. keep in fo yafuture like how you said /*lied :X haaa!

heyhey, dec oso my jianglai okay ~ *hinting ~

okay, starving alr. gna gnagna&gna eat (:

T/: Thnks, you. yes you. fo pasting my life fo 1 to 2 min and tts jus ensure me tt, God,Jesus,Lord, is w me, protect me, help me. Thnks much (:

I'll b fine, You'll b fine.

Ima gna do my best fo you.(:

Tenth (L) <3

i love you baby, and i really do ('':

You nidda get your legs up, and continue moving on. Cos you ain't falling, No More.

2010-11-14T11:42:00.001+08:00

you,

its hard.

no way you can do it.

bt you gna know tt,

you're not alone there in th dark.

' One particular person tt leads you to th dark?

When there's dark, there's light.

You ain't falling becos of particular person.

Cos when someone leads you to th dark,

Someone will leads you to light.

If you gna fall cos tt one particular person,

You gna let down those people,

Waiting you in dark,

That leads you to th light. '

Life is long?

no, life's short.

ain't no more old ppl dying. bt everyone suffering.

life is complicated. you're complicated, im complicated.

life short. you gna know it,

mayb jus, simply forget those memories? past? tears? hurts? pain? anger?

cos tis jus make life longer&complicated, make your nite longer&complicated, day longer&complicated. and you gna suffer longer&complicate-ly.

cos life is abt learning.

you gna learn th tears, pain, anger.

And you'll know th laughter.

You'll b fine girl (:

i<3you luckystar ~

Not tt i din listen, just tt there's something more..

2010-11-13T15:14:00.000+08:00

' I Need You Now ' not only words can express it, bt you nidda heart to feel it.
Do you understand?
no you dun, ima sorry.

effing hell.
today's just eff.
i totally , absolutely wasted my effing 9 hrs fo freaking umpire test. and guess wad ppl, i bloody hell fail it. i slept @12++ yesterday nite and had to freaking hell wake up @5 to go to tt prick umpire test. ohh jeez. wads wrong w it? yes, sth is major wrong here dude. i actually can freaking relaxing in my bed till mayb jus 11~12+ den mayb do sth BETTER den tt freaking test tt I EFFING SCREW IT. @1st @5, i told myself, since ima going over there, ima gna pass. i wont let tis fucking trip wasted bt who knows , it wasted like screw shit. i told you i fail, not fo you to effing hang me up bt jus make me. do you understand? no you dun, nobody does. i said nth becos i see no effort tt you wanna know and yea, no deservation fo ya to know. yea, jus lik today. no not, not like today. today is jus i fucking make tt effort bt simply nobody screwing see it. becos it simply NOBODY wanna make tt effort to bloody see it. remember, no effort = NTH. seriously. even tho i make effort, you no make effort , is jus equal to no point.

i wasted my half day today, and i'll remember tt fo life.

you'll b fine girl (:

Holy Suspicious-Heart

2010-11-06T21:39:00.001+08:00

okay great.
cant wait fo next week ~

yea cant wait cant wait, and den yea, ima sick. asshole(s.

i did say b4 i wanna sick. BT is when Xiaokeai's sick. NOT when Xiaokeai has recover and ima sick.

okay chicken. i dun even wanna tt effing bacteria running in my nose manczx. aft tt trip to china and ima living like hell @tt time, i dun wanna sick anymore alr. its seriously... like hell.
imagine, oversea trip should b happily looking @th world and discover NEW things. While ima in th room/ hotel, kept sleeping & thinking while i should b outside SHOPPING yaknowyaknow! Its fully hellllllllllll.

bt i guess, ima strong enough to b okay by monday yea?
yea pray hard girls.

alright! yea great. i've done alot of things and i've alot of things to b done (:
all i can say is, tomoro is th last week of this week and aft tt im good (:

cos tis week is fully like hell.
and jus pray hardhard tt th other rest of th week wil b lik heaven ~
Sorry god

okay, so tis week of work paid, had been spend away by me alr ~ wooo, tts fas :/

Alright, Xiaokeai, hav a job in her hand right now & ima oso praying fo you tt you CANT get tt job. HAHAH. jokejokejoke~
praying fo you tt you can get wad you wanna fo th job luhs okay? haaa. i mean not tt so much days/hours. yea, cos firstly, dun wanan you get tt tired. Will you? :O
secondly, *erermm....

okay, lucks baby ~
4more days~ Countdown? (Y)~

我须要不是我要.

Get well soon >;

2010-11-02T08:10:00.000+08:00

okay,
i wasnt able to sleep back alr. dunno why.
ima tired cos yesterday nite i oso wasn't able to sleep.
mayb jus post alil while and tryna sleep back again later which i dun think i can.
yesterday th whole freaking nite, was rolling ard, kicking ard, flipping ard my bed. and i jus cant effing sleep.
i wanna myself to sleep. bt when i lie on my bed. i'll jus start thinking :/
my eyes jus keep opening.
i wanted it to close and go to my wonderland.

haa wonderland!
Someone's sick out there >: and how can i go tt wonderland all by myself! tts why, i wasnt able to sleep you see. haaa.

okay freak, i shouldnt b going M you know. i jus wish faster go faster back and check if you're much better.
damn. tis week is a busy week and tis week SHOULDNT b my busy week.
okay, ima sure later going to malaysia ima gna b so tired. and i dun even think i can enjoy tt shopping over there. &mummy gna scold me again :/

so guess gna start working on thurs or fri?
mayb fri if you're still haven got much better.

okay, g ah,
Its okay tt i cant you see even tho i miss you tt bad ~ LOL
bt all i wanted you to recover fast okay.
its really 'haiyooo...' ' haizzz...' (ache) you know when hear your voice lidat.

so,
Get well soon alrights
drink more water
tryna eat more porridge. even tho i know you dun lik ~
bt porridge is better den eating rice fo sore throat. wont b tt painful.
Remember, my pain, is Double ~ hahah

aft these few days you'll b fine okay Xiaokeai
suffer alil in life aft tt you'll know more abt life~ (:

so stop eating th chinese medi okay. eat wad th doc giv you. *Antibotic
so you've to finish it! okay remember!

so eat your antibotic on time okay.
Drink more water.
Sleep more, rest well
try not to use too much phone, tv, comp okay.

fast get well okay.

see, you make me cant sleep ! hhas

okay, i know i nag alot. bt really dun wanna see &hear you lidat ehs~

Get well Get well baby >:

Dearest stays in your heart

2010-10-30T12:27:00.001+08:00

i <3 you baby ~

remember, its baby ~ haaaa(:

Alright!

damn ~

soso !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NAZEERA ! ;NANA!

soso! you tis pretty!

May Wish all your beautiful dreams come reaaaaal true alrights!

Alrights! so , enjoy your hugehuge eraser(s) okay! hahahahah!

okay!

so ima still gna thnks tis pretty/cutie ! cos if without her, ima not gna hav today's (ITRS)~

really really ~

so thnks alot ~

so , singing w her, screaming w her , laughing w her , dancing w her & of cos w FATIN! (:

so lotsof fun ~

<3ya pretty (:

todaytodaytodayttttttttttooooooooooooday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMY~ <3

soso! mummy!

Mayb Wish All Your Dreams&Wishes come reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal young and beautiful alrights!

so, mummy!

thnks fo everything!

taking care of me ~

bring me to tis & tt ~

scold me~

nag me ~

laugh w me ~

play w me ~

talk w me ~

and so!

thnks you so much ~

;so remember , when you tink everythings' gone, there's still a mother w you always & ever~ (:

bt, stay cheerful alright~

b stress no more!

stressfree!

dun tink much okay

he's in your heart fo life ima sure. &always in everyones' <3

i<3you MUMMY! :D

alrights, so lazy to post alr :/ mayb later on! (:

tonite! nidda go chevon to hav our dinner celebration fo mummy ~

w Alvina jiejie family ~ (:

yesterday, went XinWang w Xiaokeai! and aftwards badminton w PHYLLIS too ~ (:

den bad w sharleen~

yea, gna book on wed ~ (:

i wanna K! :O

2010-10-29T10:25:00.000+08:00

damn.
why is life such difficult?
wanna do sth, nidda think of everyone, everything.
i dunno how to communicate anymore.
cos everything everyone jus effing stuck me in th middle.

yea jus lik, such a 2 parties,
with a gun, tryna shoot each other and while ima th one who tryna stop it.
bt in th end ima th one who got shot.

yea, i wanna lie no more.
i wanna you to doubt no more.
i wanna you to think abt me no more. simple.

should i push away or again, tell another lie?

If you wanna fly, you've to put all th shit away tt weighs you down

2010-10-24T14:21:00.000+08:00

/tts th reason why

its so hard fo me./

yay, great <3my bro ! yea fo th 1st time saying him handsome ~ haaa bt he's cute remember ~ (:

he helped me ! and yea ! got my comp get fixed ! damn! happy ! bt still, when mine got fixed, his? boom. when his got fixed? mine? boom. jeeez. yea, heart dun break even ~

so now, fighting fo it aye ~

okay, yesterday. Sci Centre. in da morning. okay tt bacteria and health~ its not really fun and is bored. i wanna sleep ~ cos on tt freaking night, i din get enough sleep cos i've to wake up every min sec jus to check if comp keep on running fo updating sth ~ yea, jus to play.

see tt?

you can jus bcos of play, make yourself damn xinku.

and no matter how xinku izzit, you jus wanna get tt, it means you wanna get it. if not, you'll jus flare up and mayb jus blust everything around you w jus your machine gun or mayb tekken skill.

and bcos of tt, next day ima lidat ~ damn. scary .

okay, spending my time around walking alone in th scicentre and jus realised tt actually alone, its not as dark as wad i tink and perhaps, scared of. i jus know more abt th scicentre and mayb more abt th world was actually complicated and woaaahhhh... ya know. its true.

there's alot probs with th ppl in th world becos th world is complicated. tts th reason why. too much things alr. so much different different spcial , cool , nice, wonderful, things alr. and you'll know tt actually all th shit lil things was actually so wonderful too. go and try it. of cos mood hav to b tandem. if not. nothings will happen.

bt soon, ima bored again. back to reality again , than living in my own world @tt time.

okay, mummy's say ima getting bad temper! jeez! god. manxcz. mayb jus, alot of things.

comp din work well past few days.

weather was so hot yesterday.

Tvs, no show to really let me stay still and glue my eye on it.

i've nothing to do.

feeling tired easily.

jus wanna sleep.

know why?

cos mayb jus wanna you.

okay damn. PTM~

jeez ~ soso, talked damn long! teacher w my mummy.

their not talking abt my studies ya know.

they're talking fo so long cos of my character; living in my own world

they said i can ignored everything in th world jus fo 1 freaking thing yaknow.

it means i wanna do tis means i wanna do tis and i dun care wad you wanna scold me later on :/

christ, am i tt bad?

and yea, out of sch, my mum scolded me ~

bt haaa, lucky, lesser den midyear ~

' students hav to b seated down and wait fo teacher. bt you're special. teacher wait fo you.'

yea great.

okay and i really wanna go Fareast plaza okay i didnt lie to you okay Xiaokeai.

enjoy (:

okay , dearest mummy birthday is coming right up!

and surprise fo ya pretty!

okay, K tonite? K tonite? (: cant wait <:

ppl jus find me irritating soon.

good fo me.

mayb jus,

bug i mean.

Looking back into my scars

2010-10-19T20:00:00.000+08:00

'Babies!

- Do done th excerise! -

and yea ~

finallyfinally&finally~

comp's back & i can peacefully watch my show & blog& do my stuff, without any blackout, blue screen, pop out, cant startup. yea, hope so. cos jus now jus happened once bt no twice and hoping there's no twice @all.

okay, soso,

i screwed up my science, and i seriously did. i wrote a 'goodgame' @th cover page during science paper @tt time. &see, i knew it ~ ahhh, i can predict th future ~ yea, as if.

okay, i hate talkings' abt result. cos i know, i wont do any better anyway.

jus trumble down th slope of my confident every each time.

'ah, freak, not again, ' everytime i said bt its all jus, extraneous. too alr.

okay so jus, yea, can, good.

okay! soso back into my mood again ~

somewhere, somewad, sometime! guess wad!

went to eat somekind of hi-tea with LIM's fam ~

and in th end, playing games or so ~

too small, i can jus say alil too small. i mean, alil not worth :/

bt still~ niceeeeee ~ haaa. great

and yea, play&play&play&play, &its look reaaal disgusting :/

okay so, you wanna eat, wanna try and yea jus do it okay

okay, some of these days , went to jin sha ~ yeaa tt newly opened casino ~ and yea, shopping mall. &damn~ everything there branded ~ cant buy anything too ~

ppl jus go mainly jus fo casino, wad do you tink ~

yea okay great. so its superb duperb nice ~

yea beautiful, jus go and see it ~
yea, i bring you go one day ~ ((:

okay! so on sat , went to watch movie with ALVINA JIEJIE & her boy ~ haaa.
so thnks her fo jus dig up time fo me to go with them ~
thnks fo th treat too! C:

so, these 2 days with tis XiaoKeai and oso with another keai one ~ haaa

so, we've been doing ART @west mall yesterday ~

and tt only 2 letter, alr fagged me out. JEEZ ima so weak ==

lil bit tired lil bit tired, how am i suppose to survive next time in th future with sociality? manxcz comeon. now you, dun hired me next time. cos ima not gna work fo you cos i'll jus sleep anytime. jeez, ... jus.. giv me chance. haaa~

cos like you say, giv me a 2nd chance. cos ima jus not ready fo th 1st~ hahahhaha! *your phrase~

and of cos, aft i slept fo so uncomfortable lil while, my energy's back ~

okay tts so fast ~ jus lika pig :O goodgame fo me ~

no, ima an ant, lik wad M.Kong says ~ haaa

soso, tis Xiaokeai come to house today again to watch somekind of sorodity row ~ and yea, told ya, disgusting ~ go&watch, its nice (:

and so,

<3you pretty~ (:

;

okay so, any overdues' movies to recommend? thnks ~

Pleased everyone, isn't easy.

2010-10-08T20:47:00.001+08:00

" Gna tryna fix in th car! "

and yea~ ima gna do it(:

okay! great!great!great!and worst!

JEEEZ~ soso , todaytodaytodaaaaaaay !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!

May Wish all your lil lil lil sweet lil dreams come reaaal lilililil sweet & trueeee alrights! (:

<3sduck ~ (:

&so! today! Hist! Engp2! manxcz! nugget! was okay bt quite hard bt was okay and still i can do it ~ C: wooot! confidentconfident~ nahh no hav :/

know wad? i nida your loving hand to pick my confident ~ hahahah! sweeeet ~

okay great! and soso, went to MOF to celebrate SEAN's bday? haaa eheh ~ fake~ @1st @MOF bt aftwards, went up to foodcourt to eattttttt ~ ooops ~ *sorry :X

XiaoKEAI came my house jus now ~ and you know i know (: its all abt maths ~ haaa!

and sososososo! im gna thnks tis XIAOKEAI fo th teaching! & i gotta 23 fo th test! (Y)~

3 papers all tgt and tis is only th one of th paper i passed :O shit, so embrassing, and i shouldnt say. bt i alr said. 2pid aye ~

and y'know, being her student is such a honored thing BT a tough time :/

bcos, she gota *serious face and i dunno wad to do.

so when i got probs w maths or sth, i would go to her bt i knew i shouldnt. bt still, i will~ haaa!

mayb its jus a habit or mayb i jus wanna see you! > hahahahah! *ahhh sweet~

bt no matter wad, she'll hav tt patient w me aye?

bt slowly, i would <3 her teaching ~

cos she would den slowly praise me when i get each quest correct! wooooooooooot! i (L tt! haaaa!

XiaoKEAI, im sorry >;

&last bt not least, i<3you! *TENTH!

okay soso, quickquick&quick! wed!wed!wed! and YOU! nugget! malaysiamalaysia! and holiiiiiiiiiiiiii ~

yeaaa ~ cant wait !

make sure i done well fo my exams :/ and i dun tink i would do it ver well ~ i would do it rarely well :X

eeee, no confident :Z suck :O

-i wanna sing K!

Doubt me no more

please, jus please.

Will it come true?

2010-10-02T14:28:00.000+08:00

Cant rely on you

2010-09-29T19:09:00.000+08:00

/pics later on

/okay prick.
ima being a prick tis few days and gna b another prick fo th next few days.
hav a damn freaking lousy mood these few days.
bad pms bad pms :/
so better dun make me you prick.
forgive me fo being a sucker fo these few days.
cos i really undercontrol right now.
fo awhile, i'll tink tt everyones angel in my world and fo th next sec, everyones a freak.
reallyreally.
ima tired easily & ima gna b damn easily pissed. mayb fo sth else and worst still, fo nth else.
or jus one effing sleep , ima lidat. so ignored and jus treat me invisible.

and yea, i hate sch right now. freaking now. i love sch cos frens and i hate sch cos studies. manxcz comeon. izzit 2pid to hate sch when you've to go to sch every single freaking day? yeaa it is. so ima an idiot here hating sch. bt nahhh, i hate sch jus these few days and aft tt i'll b alright. ima sure.

hating sch cos;
exams coming.
fucking lots test coming up.
and i literally failed most of it; effed up.
tt freaking maths test result really make me feel so suckish towards my studies.

and every single shitty day, i've to sleep @least once. manczx comeon ? wads wrong here? sth's wrong here. sth's wrong here. i nid pill to wake me up every single seconds and tell me, pls tell me ' idiot amanda, you better wake up and concentrate b4 you really absolutely regret. '
jeez.

and i effing hate studies becos i hav tt fucking short attention span right here. yea in my head and tts it, tt is, tts why, tts th freaking big probs here which carrys me to everything above.

screw it. feeling suckish, feeling lousy.
isn't it 2pid fo a NA student to stress fo studies? effing hell. comeon.
fo th 1st time ima lidat and jus bcos im affected by tt shitty maths test.

okay ima sorry.
sorry fo myself tt i cant cope with stress.
ima tt person tt i cant even cope with stress. so better dun giv me stress or i'll hate you.
alil of stress and i'll tink tt its a bigprobs lik disorder? comeon? ima idiots. being spoilt .
cos all iknow its abt playandplayandplayandLAUGH. and yea tts it. i laugh i play. fail? i still laugh and play and tts it. tis is wad i deserve alr man. jeeeez.

hate it hate it.
i'll b fine reaal soon. i guess. ima hoping./

it'll b best tt you b there.
yeaa, there's you.
and you'll b there.
right?

okay so, hey , HAPPYBIRTHDAY RYAN <3
so on sun, went tis zai's house to hav his bday celebrated ~
and was lik spending time there eating! reading story books & talking w ALVINA JIEJIE~ ; Eveerything'll b fine of cos! C:

okay yesterdayesterday!
sch, dnt and went out ALVINA JIEJIE to eateateateat HKxingwang :O
niceee ~ bt was lik damn freaking fulll! manxcz! too much milkmilk :/
and yeaa thnks t tt ryan aye? treating us bcos he got 100+ fo his bday's present manxcz comeon! rich guy rich guy! jokelaughandmaybghhhossst ~ haaa okay great~

Beeen out with XIAOKEAI these few days aft class fo our latelate lunch!
okay, ima gna return all th debt i have w her! manxc damn lots! and now i know why lots of $ in your poc becos , reallyreally, no money its really damn pathetic :/ really it is. and i finally feel it now. wanna buy a cinn melt, tt freaking 60cents i dun even hav == so was like ZZZZ ~
and you know, you've a damn nice concern to show bt you jus dun wanna show idunno why ~ show it out manxcz! im gna b inlove you lik hellllll ~
bt still,
i<3you~
haaaa*laughs~

okok, quickly post and do my stuff alr. ~
shit, tired :X

Getting better

2010-09-25T18:44:00.001+08:00

ha okay, i got you~ <3

10s~ C:

wadwadwsadwad?

manzxc.

okay i know ima lazy ~

lazy to update my blog since my comp died long ago.

nahh nop not really lots of special cos you know, its gna b exam soon and so, lucks to me ~

and soso, am i busy studying?

wad do you tink?

if i said yes,

would anyone believe?

jeez~

bad one bad one.

sleep more & noisy more & play more and tis is wad you deserve okay ~

okay freak, i suddenly wanna take bio ? :/

bt i chose phy :O

cos i read thru th topics lik wad you said and so, its seems reaaaaaaaaaaal bored ~

wanna change; *still tinking

bt ima lazy! lazy to memorize so many freaky things~

and wad kind of job in da future? doc? nurse? mygodmygod~ not my type ~

soso,

should i? comeon! quick! giv me suggest! if not its gna b reaaaal late ~

haaa okay.

soso,

bak to lifetimes~

candlesparklefiresmokepaperlightersandtreeshopssnacksheartnamesytd.

okay its fun (:

steamedeggsfirebowlcookingstirringwaterspoonchopstickeattastetdy.

okay its nice ~ (:

/fo th 1st time so freaking successful fo cooking ~

my maid failed! bt i success~ see ima cleverrrrrrrr ~

hey comeon! its my 1sttime 1st time ? supportsupport pls comeon ~

and yeaa ~

Xiaokeai came my house in da afternoon ~ (3

okay and so, she laughoutLOUD when she was checking my sis's sci worksheet :O

yeaa,

ablockofwood aye?

i see i cry bt she laughed! manxcz comeon ~ takeover me comeon pretty (:

okay guess wad?

gna b my backup plan times ~ (:

P/S: Sorry Sim! :/

Headache;

2010-09-20T18:18:00.001+08:00

feeling so tired; headache, wanna get some sleep yea.

todays weather made me suck ~

Monday blueeeee ~

Weather made me soooo blue ~

actually im okay w today haaaa!

jus tt freaking weather made me sweat and so i hate it haaa ~

nahhhh, not every monday is monday blues yeaa ~

or think positively ppl ~ blue! bright nice colour ~ ((:

mayb jus today realised, learned, scared sth?

haaa, should hav prepared~

todays absloutely boring lesson ~

nth to do ~

not able to sleep well when trying to sleeep ~

manxcz .

ah, ima tired.

i might fall anytime.

Remember Me

Tenths <3

1010101010! :3

2010-09-17T22:08:00.001+08:00

JEEEEEEEEEEZ!

MYGOOOOD~

Tis PRETTY!

Tis SWEETIE!

Tis XIAOKEAIIIIIIIIIII!

's on da bigbigbig plane right now!

guess wad! ima gna miss her lik OHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHMYGOD~ -Usher

yeaaaa! really ima!

ima gna keep myself up & not miss tis XIAOKEAI by doing sth!; going out ~

bt even ima going out, staying @home, in da process, always got her phone call ~ JEEEEZ! fo 3days! nahh, actually 2&halfdays, bt still! its longggggggggggggggg!

ima gna keep myself survive aye? hahahah!

ahhhh so weak amanda, so weak ~

ima gna survive Y)! remember, still there's another coming up 12days fo me to pass ya'know? and mayb more! in between of th coming up 12days, she's oso going ~ even aft tt freaking 12days. ahhhh Screw you! ]:

soso, XIAOKEAI! better! takecare there ~

hav fun ~

sleep well, sleep tight ~

sweet dreams every single nite of me alright! hahahaaaa!

drink waterrrrrrr! dun get sick you nugget!

and th stars its oso nice luhs okay pretty~

soso, gna miss you you pig~

better fulfill my wishes ~ haaa picspicpics! snapsnap*

safetrip!

takecare, hav fun~

b back reaaaal fas!

i<3you! :3

older one~

yeaa so, i posted fo tis pretty~

haaa!

okay today den,

up... & down ... rollar coaster? nahh, i alr knew. bt jus haven got prepared.

y. ima jus too afraid. afraid another time like tis, ima gna giv up.

i swear i gna if another 3rd happened.

twice alr. i cant take it anymore. even if i could, there's gna b probs with me in th future fo sure.

th effect. th damaged. th pain. th tiredness. no fake.

i knew you'll get affected. i knew sth's not right.

jus tinking why.

why not everyone's same as ph----s?

living in their own world? not tinking any feelings? it jus suck.

cos they dun even go thru. i get it and den i've to lost. why izzit?

now lose bcos of it? bcos of jus one freaking simple thing? man, tis is not a big ting.

its jus sth you saw and sth you nidda do it too.

eff ? why izzit? losing again? no.

dun doubt me. i hate it.

bcos, i dun dare to face th fact.

dun make me face it.

I assume tt you dunno, Not you dun care. I hope

2010-09-15T21:06:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHARLEEN DUCK!

DUCKDUCKDUCKDUCKQUACKQUACKQUACKQUACK!

May Wish All Your WISHES come reaaaal trueeeee and CUTE lika DUCK! HAHA!

yeaaa! YOU SHARLEEN DUCK!
reallyreallyreaaaaaaaly!

thnks fo everythingggggg~
thnks fo being my listening ear when i talk ~
thnks fo cheering me~
thnks fo all th anger i vent ~
thnks fo th badminton-s wtih me ~
thnks fo th presents you gave ~
thnks fo th effort you made, trying to get me smile ~
yeayeayea and sooo on ~
HAHA!

soso! you tis
DUCK!
CUMUMBER!
CHARLEEN!
AND STOP STUDYING ENGLISH @TH AGE OF 5!
better..............

stay CHEERFUL!
stay CUTE!
stay SWEET!
and stay being a SHORT GIRL in netballll ~ hahahah! yeaaa and so! you wont win meeeeee~ HAHA
i mean th height duckie ~ (((:
HAHA!

takecare of your health okay duckie [:
stay strong! iknow you're! :D
<3yaaaaaa!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOCELIN POH!

GODDDDDD! CUTIE I<3YA!

May Wish All Your DREAMS come reaaaal sweet and cute like fairytales in wonderlanddddddd! :D

HAHA!

JOCELINPOH!

goddddd!

yeaaa! still here, saying, THNKS FO EVERYTHING~

hahaaa! when ima w you, ima happyyyy!

cos we'll b lik crazyalloverthplacelikenobodybusiness!

laughing like ppltotwe'recrazyneedagofoasurgerybtstillwe'renobodybusiness!

noisy like somebodytherewithusreallycannottakeit!

rubbish like somebodyouttheregotasuperbpowertolerationrightnow!

lame like 2pididiottalkingrubbishinthdustbin!

yeaaa! one day on dec.

we both really hav to get our knee down to LESLEY!

cos she's always th one who tolerate our nonsense!

HAHA

yeayea, JOCELIN POHPOHPOHPOH~

YOU! better stay CHEERFUL lik always and always!

YOU! better stay NOISY as always and usual!

YOU! better stay PRETTY as ever and ever!

YOU! better stay CUTE forever!

YOU! better stay and b my HAPPYIDOL fo life okay!

i hate to see you're down! reallyreallyreally~

HAHA!

sososo! happy birthday CUTIE ~

my bday present rox iknow HAHAHA!

see it whenever you're not in balance okay ~

<3ya!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHARINNNNNNNN!

SHARINSHARINSHARINPUDDINGSHARIN ~

May Wish All your Dreams in your sleeps Come reaaal pretty and trueeee okay! :D

yeaaa! sharinnnnnnnn!

HAHA!

yeaa! thnks fo always listen to my rubbbish in class! HAHA!

thnks fo always ansing my random questions ~ haaaa

yeaaa!

okay,

Stay PRETTY!

stay CHIO!

stay FIERCE :O bt you're goood ~ hahahas!

yeaa! you get drunk on your bday!

manxcz! pretty! dun drink much okay hahaha! (((:

yeaaa~ <3yaaaa

anything you can tell me fo sure aye ~ i'll talk to you! HAHA! :D

aahhh ~ yeaa finally ! done my bday post!

someone's blowing me to turn to tv screen :/

so better fast end hereeee !

tomoro's, i dun tink its gna b a good day :/

bt still, i'll smile fo you [:

i BOOMED my brain ~

2010-09-12T22:47:00.000+08:00

jeez! i forgot to blog today!
and ima lazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
3bday post ima owe :/
yeayea pray hard to yourself its you ~ woooooooooooo!
*luckylucky*

th next bday post, you'll b sure there's me ~
yayyy!
know wad?
cos th next 3bday post is fo myself ! HA HA HA HA HA
okay 2pid ~

tis post jus to cover my forgotten post today and jus to entertain myself.
ima bored :O
haaa!
i dun sleep ~
cos ima waiting fo some hardworking sweetie to do finish her note~
shhhhhhhhhhhh. dun tell her tt ima waiting fo her okay.
comeon, its a secret. keep w me ~ C:

Running out of breathe; Becos i dun even have enough stamina

2010-08-16T19:43:00.001+08:00

/Breathe

Stamina

Panting

Tired

Faint

den I'll puff.

Breathless

Not enough Stamina

Heavy Panting

Very tired

den I'll take a pill

Isnt tt too over?

Isnt tt too rough?

Isnt tt too exaggerated?

Isnt tt too 2pid?

Isnt tt too nonsensical?

Isnt tt too nonessential?

i dunno.

i jus feel so out.

out enough.

im so tired.

so tired.

ver tired.

stamina, forever, wont b enough.

reallyreallyreally..

im trying to control myself

im trying to take everything as a learning fo me

im trying to take everything as a training fo my stamina

bt i realised i became weaker each time im trying to take everything.

reallyreallyreally.

you're not building.

you're destroying.

destroying me.

im tired. really im.

i tink i had enough./

better b a short one.

lesson bored as usual ~

okay i really dun wanna go to sch :X

who wants?!

manxcz.

bt still fren a joy~

remember yeaa (:

went LOT alil.

MY BREAD! godddd!

guess wad!

2 of my bread jus dropped onto th ground when i jus bought 3 with JOCELIN's 2 more!

manxczx i haven even eat any okay den jus dropped lidat? den it left 1 bread fo me to enjoy):

goddddd wasteddddd!

and yeaa, LESLEY's idea was great bt she wasnt there to remind me cos she ran off! ;embarassing ~ !

okay gtg ...............................~ yeaa! (:

i know why im tired.

becos ppl dun work lik tis

becos nobody work like tis

becos i and you dun even wanna work like tis.

cos

i know

you dun care

You went away

2010-08-12T20:46:00.003+08:00

11th

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENNY AUNTY! ~

May Wish Your Dreams&Wishes Come Really Nice&True okay! (:

Stay Young&Pretty Jenny Aunty!

Stay Cheerful always okay! no fierce no fierce im sure alrights ((:

Attractive baby! HAHA!

im sure~

all your girls and boys are reaaaal good okay! no worries im sure you're not okay!

thnks fo all th cutting~ hahaah!

great barber i intro-ing ~ haaa!

go Bukit okay! bt remember ! alwaysalways! go BOONLAY tooooooo! HAHHAA!

no matter wad BOONLAY best okay of cos manxcz! hahahah! (:

so bday ~ <3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAUREN!

May Wish Your All Dreams Come REAAAAL Sweet&True okay! (:

okay!

since i know you & saw your pic so I POST!

okay, i tink i'll get killed :o

okay!

STAY CHEERFUL!

STAY CUTE&PRETTY!

STAY YOUTINKIMACRAZYIKNOW

STAY BEING A GREAT SWIMMER~

Stay.., tts all i know you haaaa!

Lucks fo your everything alrights (:

today~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHYLLIS~!

May Wish Your All WishesDreams Come Like ShootingStars so Beautiful okay! (:

Stay Random!

Stay Cheerful!

Stay Funny!

Stay Cute!

Stay Pretty!

and yea ! i<3yaphyllis! :3

HAHA!

thnks babe!

and im sorry :/

alwaysalwaysalways you told me you dun like me to me somewad not myself!

okay i'll b less okay! i promise ~

and so sorry again fo today, your birthday bt not my day :X

still im having FUN with you lovely! HAHA!

tallgiant~ always ache my neck :/ goddd ~ haaaa!

on MONDAY!

went to CWP to watch CurseOfDeserted~

okay tt day,

be4 tt nite, freakkkkk!

i lost 2kg again

screw my stomach hardly reallly ! my gastric! prick!

god! it took up my sleeps! my beautiful sleeps! manxcz!

comeon! guess wad! yesyes, gastric again and so once again spend 2hrs trying to fix my freaking gastric! reallyreallyREALLY mancxz ~

tis time not tt lucky as tt time cos tt time th next day my stomach is completely fine bt tis time NOT! godddddddddd~

hard time walking you know! cos its hurting! shittyyyyy ~

could hardly dare to eat anything :/

its uncomfortable plsplspls DUN try it ppl~

guess wad, aft tt gota lil of fever? mayb of tt nite, not enough sleep~ bt aft tt day ima finee ~ (:

and so, ima fine (:

okay tt movie ~

LoveStory(?)

yeaa exactly ~

only tt sounds effect scarrrrrre youu ~ haaa!

abt movie,

introintrointroINTRO you!

AFTERSHOCK ~ wooooot ~

mussss watch yeaaa ~

you'll know ~

its superb touching all i can sayyy ~

cos it made me teaaaaaaaaaaaared!

watch it (: i swear its nice ! (((:

so on th next day~

TUES!

went kh to treat; PHYLLIS,

SAKURAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~

jesss, i dun tink its a good day fo my sakura :X

cos i tink i'd wasted my $ manxcz~ cos i din eat much!

cos my gastric still alil hurting :X

okay went LOT aft tt.

so on yesterday ~

went to celebrate JENNY AUNTY's BIRTDHDAY @FISH&Co~

haaa! total bill! $227~ WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

nicelyyy ~

We: Can we pay nets?

Fish&Co: No way!

We: Why?!

Fish&Co: Cos th fishes are scared of net yea.

its funny i know, laugh manxc ppl (:

lamechop themmmmmmm!

im trying to control.

im trying to control hardly and well.

control my feelings

control my emotions

control myself

control to stay still

control to wad i want

control to wad im

control to imalwaysgood tt state

control to laugh every single sec

control to joy

control to nothing, anything, everything..

control to wads best fo me..

bt its hard. always hard.

making me lose control.

every single time.

im tired, i know im tired.

sleeps ain't enough. forever not enough.

sleeps dun even help.

it only could solved when someone could tell me wad to do.

th best way. th bestest way fo everyone. tts th best.

bt i nid someone tt had gone thru wad im going thru now.

so tt, tt person could tell me..

im sorry

Put me in your shoe, How would you feel?

2010-08-05T17:54:00.068+08:00

campcampcampcacascmacasds;dapppdspdpsadpasppppp!

yeaaaa!

im back ~

freaking back~ woooo?

okay @1st i dun even look forward to th camp bt till there, I<3IT~

its fun actually!

i mean yea, its really fun ! hahahha!

okay so, i missed them there ~

so activities~

high&lowelement ~

natural rumble~
Kayaking ~
campfire~
RingDingDongNuAbo~
washed,bathed,sleep,jumped,run,laughed,cried ~

both nites! hardly get some sleep! :X
cos its way too hardddddddddddd! bt luckily~ 2nd nite i was able to sleep in da morninnnng ~

1st nite cos its tooooo hard~
2nd nite cos its toooo ITCHY!
reaaally ! damn effing mosquito!
yess, yes, i wanna screw them all once againn! seriously!

they got my everywhere and my everywhere are damn effing red&swollen alr! freaking itchy manxcz! itchy till i've to put myself in th damn

campfire!
yeaa dance with tt dancer teaching us! AINNIE SHINEE! yeaa she's a great dancer i believe hahaha! <3pretty!

every different class dance differently is reaaal cool haaa! (:
nicely ~

okay so, i enjoyed th camp reaal much~
so COMEON! join it!
okay, i remember sec 1 camp isn't tt awesome okay.
oh its far way too NOT awesome @all!
instructor not tt good as tis one ~ ahhhh im depending on ppl :/

okay enough abt campcampcampcamp~
if not gna miss it badly again okay.
oh i haven't add them on facebook :O
haaa lik i know how lidat LOL
add me if possible okay hahah! cos im sure im lacking time fo adding ppl ~ so add me if you're not paitent~ with me, you've to b okay haaa. if not you'll die :L

okay, went JurongPoint with LESLEY on FRI!
yea, thnks fo th treating starbucksss!
and yeaa walkshopdenoutofmind till 4,5+~
HAHA funnnnnny~

yesterday nite ~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHANGRUXUAN! <3

Small girl!

May Wish Your Dream Come Reaaaal Cute lik fairytale in wonderland okay! (:

oieeee naughty girl!

see me run see me run!

everytime wanna me to catch you! haaa!

yeaa, you're gna to hav another meimei alr yeaaa ~

dun bully her you tis naughty girl!

even us you dare alr so you better <3 her lotslots i tell you!

run so much lik crazy lidat HAHA!

yeaa! b a good girl you naughty girl!

<3naughty! (:

okay so, went to tis naughty girl's birthday party @chalet! and yeaaa, when going there, @car damn long ~ haaa! cos cant find th way there yeaa. bt cant blame okay. blame who? wooot! government! shit! if he gna see tis, my house gna b BOOMED alr :O

haaa! tt road change alotalot so we cant really know ~

so lik crazy over there with wadever i see! manxcz i'd thrown SHUWEN JIEJIE's face! completely manxcz :/

im so sorry tt nite im jus crapping wih you cos im drunk down with my tiredness alr i swear :/

really! lets pretend tt nite didnt happen @all okay! lika pretend th airplanes in da niteskys LIKE SHOOTING STARS!

okay, today!

went to meet ALIVINA JIEJIE to eat our lunch , KFC! hahaha!

bt b4 tt we watched Th Champion ~ hahah! been such a long time show alr bt we still watching it ~ hahaha!

aft eating went to walkwalkwalkwalkwalkwalkwalkandwalk~

den back to her house to watch RenWoOuYou again ~

den homed~

went to somekind of buffet later on with parent~

den went to see AHMA! been a long time i see her manxcz :X

get well soon okay! you're fine (: always fine my strong AHMA WOOOT! I<3YOU! <3<3<3! HAAA!

okay~ gna sleep soon yea

tomoro gna watch movie!

you fall fo th wrong person bt at th right time.

mummy says im weird. :/

korkor says im weird too. :/

why im weird?

why am i reacting tis way?

its weird i know. bt why?

i know why. cos i been thinking and thinking.

thinking abt th ans tt i wanting to know.

desperate to know..

dun fall fo me,

im using you.

im selfish i know.

bt i cant control it.

Things are not th same what i wanted..

2010-07-31T00:37:00.003+08:00

I wonder when it is gonna happen

Out of all th things in life,

Half of it is not alive

I can feel it all left abandon

I've worry enough for all th things

But fact and fact is not changing,

But I'll still keep on moving..

darkness doorway,

im gna get thru it and find my brightest door to lead my way

today,

yes, right,

sch day of cos as usual.

bt today's different.

,tell yourself th previous nite wad you plan to do& you gna do fo tomoro's morning, and im sure even if your heart asked you not to do tis becos tis is wrong, you'll still do it. Lots of xcuse given to your heart and den it'll accept it.

yea so, my plan fo today's morning @previous nite, is to late fo sch.

&yea, im late today. so late.

becos i told myself, i'll go to school. bt until i get m.y m.i.n.d s.o.r.t.e.d o.u.t.

cos if i dun, school is useless, frens is useless, whoever and wadever you're or izzit, is useless.

why?

yea, becos...

if i dun, i'll started to make trouble fo everyone and everything and den th whole world is useless to me.

if i dun, i'll ignored everyone and everything and den i tink i've wasted one day of learning&laughing.

if i dun, i'll do everything and anything so badly till i get nth.

and if i dun, i tink i went to sch tis freaking early morning tt i've alr woke up @6, i should b staring @spaces, blankly, sleeping, and try to sort IN SCH while noone could. unless w nobody ard.

who gna sort their mind with so many ppl ard you?

you cant im sure.

Thnks Yashi, fo th always listener&advicer (: <3

Thnks Lesley fo th superb touching letter yea i swear haaa~ <3

yeaa, so tt freaking om din keep his words :/
cos he said he's not gna inform and den @last still send a msg to my parents ~
succccks ~ still th same you assh~
and den i get scolded HAAA ~

~ din go fo zhps open house today sia:/

lik alil wasted:X

okay, so luckily i didnt wasted today.

went LOT aft tt with JOCELIN&LESLEY

and went to watch MOVIE~

okay, i dun lik tt show :X

cos its not my type bt with JOCELIN ard, we're th one laughing lik mad ~

she's trying to put character as us lik wad KAIMING told her!

its freaking funny HAHHAHA !

yeaa, i wanna watch aftershock with my family soon ~

gna watch despicable me, rent(?)

i wanna watch th ghost show ~ japan or korea? forgotten~ bt dunno when?

ahhh ~ its all abt moviee ~

yes i really wanna watch movie~ bt not on particular day which i dun wan. see my mood (: alrights, i promise, aft i get wad i wanna related to movie, i'll watch with you(:

bt i dunno when ~

haaa ~ it'll happen okay (: believesbelieves*

okay, jus now ~

went to eat somekind of dinner right behind my house~ yeaa, so its nearrrrr ~

and ahhh ~ tot Lim's family all would come, bt only 1 :/

heeck ~ ruins my qidaigan manxcz!

bt still, was okay ~ (:

thnks KimYew fo letting my confirm wad/which should i take ~ now i know ~

freakkkkkkkkkkk!

camp! aft 1 2 days!

afraid cant go. i dun wan go, bt im afraid cant go LOL

meaning, hope nth happen till aft th camp! pls begging ~

cos im confirm im going alr, dun wanna wasted tt chance :X

yeaa,

gna remind sth.

oh i tink im gna go LOT tomoro or mayb bbp, see how's my mood to get my stuff!

been saying and thinking so long and den im still haven get it!

Reminders~

- Eng compo

- Shoelace

- Backbag ; camp

yeaa, been forgetting all these these few days!

goddd~ my memory is absolutely suck enough ~

how am i gna work on it manxcz ~ haaa

teach me! if you think your memory are reaaaaaal good ~

excerise it lik wad you did to get your muscle? comeon, no~

if you tink its enough jus becos lidat,

den wads call mine?

shouldnt b letting it die long ago?

i know i should.

bt i couldnt.

2010-07-28T21:58:00.002+08:00

希望, 期待, expectations means nth.

cos wad i expecting,wishing,looking forward, it wont ever happen.

那場戲將是我最大的罪我必須需要面對的

its more than i can take..

fucking hell.
why izzit looking at your pic make me feel so hurt and wanna cry?
and why am i so agitated?
i should b smiling at it. bt no, no, i dunno why im not.
every fucking nite i've to wake up all so suddenly in th middle of nite, kicking, punching, screwing up th walls, th pillow, th blanket, th bed, th air. i dunno why.
one day, one day, i swear, i'll screw myself up. screw myself so badly.
prick,
i should b sleeping sweetly and soundly. bt no, not, i dunno why im not.
tt feeling is not good. tt feeling hurts bad. tt feeling changes me . tt feeling tired me out badly. tt feeling stops me from things tt i wanted to do tt will make me laugh to cry. tt feeling..
tt feeling...
tt feeling...
tt feeling..

tt feeling kills me badly..

Who & What i am today, is th choices i made yesterday

2010-07-26T21:32:00.000+08:00

So see me different everyday & you'll know wad choices i made yesterday & every yesterday. I may make any reckless decision one day. Cos tt one day..

This picture shows a person walking towards a door.
"Find the right direction and go towards the brightest door."

ahhhh! okay! i miss tis pic! where does it gone to?! guess its still with M.Kong~

i hope he stil keep it :X

i wanna get it back & file it nicely & protectively ~

cos OMfG! its really nice manczx

i remember spending hours&hours&hours! thinking & drawing!

i even drawn wrongly @th opp page and im not gna show it ~

cos not nice(: no not, its TOOO NICE! haaa! bt, no not bt, its SO, M.K still post in our intro's blog ~ HAHA

so was lik YAYYYY when i look wad i've drawn!

sooooo attentive ehhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

b honored comeon ! cos im honored right now! i wanted myself to concentrate bt i dun seem can!

HAHAHAH

okayokay, dun talk much alr, if not i gotta feeling im action-ing haaa! yea im HAHA!

okay,

@sat nite!

WEDDING DINNNNNNER~

yeaaa! with cousinsssssssss!

ohmyassssshole! next time next time, i'll giv myself @least 3-4 hrs preparation! cos tt nite its really too rush! all lik last min manxcz! cos i tot got time? and i tot i WOULD know wad to wear? bt i dun == nugget ~

&yeaaa~ with cousins! all of them! father's side of cos~

its funnnnnnnnnn~ BT we were not lik th previous once, getting so much photo :/ no not, not so much photo . is not even one photo we'd taken! only tt group photo ~ hahaha soso! no pic! bt i'll b lazy upload too :X

th next day, went AHMA's house to hav a sumptuous steamboaaat! hahahah!

nicenicenice~ seafood everywherereerererererere!

okay,today~

omg, cant believe i stayed awake fo th whole :O

i normally slept th whole hours. oopppps~

ahhhh! joke~ LOL

okay, went LOT jus now to buy some stufffff & eateateat alil

think tomoro gna watch movie O.o yayyyyyyy! finally! i get to watch! cos i been complaining, keep complaining to 'somebody' ~ haaa. pity eh her? haa~ too bad! im gna use your word! KELIAN~ bt tis sucker still dun wanna pei me watch sia ! NUGGET!

okay, im suppose to done my blog an hours & so AGO! & i wanna do my lyrics! bt guess, tis blog made me do fo hour&++ manxcz! DUMB! slow eh me! really pig~

okay, i dun wanna go camp :X

im alil tired alr. i dun think im gna manage myself soon alr.

it happens again. how am i gna look @it again? positive again? dunno am i, still cant decided. if positive again, i think im lying to myself, console, myself, jus tt moment, jus tt lil. bt i still cant get over it.

i think you're lying to me. are you? hope not.

Walking Alone ; Can you walk with me?

2010-07-21T21:26:00.002+08:00

here i come~

16th!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIANTIAN! <3

May Wish Your Dreams Come REALLY TRUE & like fairytales! <3

yea, wei sis,

stay cheerful okay!

stay naughty okay! bt dun too overboard you freak!

dun so stubborn! listen alil okay!

AND PLSPLSPLS study! study well! dun lazy manxcz!

tts one of my wish towards you lei ehhhhhh chicken!

dun wanna every morning clock strike TEN den th house went BOOOOOM!

den we've to go out see how you how mummy manxc!

i knew you can study realreal well cos you're clever & you're not slow okay. 'slow' are jus a word tt ppl TOT you are bt you're NOT lovely~ you're clever im sure okay! you can score real well & muchmuchmuch better den me! you tis chicken, better fulfill my wish i tell you! wanna see how mummy gna SMILE tt WIDE when you got band 1/2 fo all sub okayokay. pls~

loves! (:

yeaa~

tis post apparently jus to post my sis's bday cos i din post on tt day :X

and it is alr past quite long alr.

pianggg, tis few months, my bday post are all so freaking late!

become lazy&lazier alr manxcz!

soon, there's gna b alot&alot of ppl bday @august!

dun tell YOU tt im gna post all until END of auguest! hahaha!

shouldnt b tt lazy asshole!

if not slowly, i'll b lying on th bed th WHOLE DAY alr!

haaaa~

-
yeaa~ continue from here~ actually im editing th post~
i'd saved th top one few days ago & den im lazy to upload th pic so i shall continue tis post.
so superb lazy to backspace th top one, waste my effort. and yea, backspace. how i wish it happen in real life, in my life. seriously.

cos i wanna backspace everything, and be a kid once again, no feeling to anyone else xcept my family. tts all. everything go superb smoothly & clean & no probs, troubles, anything, i nid to think of, sad of, bother of, feel of, hate of, like of, and den im happy fo wadever fact im facing cos i've nth to tink of as a kid.
as a kid, ppl around you says you cute, pretty, naughty, ugly and wadever. we wont feel anything as a kid, jus alil joy there bt th most thing we're cheering fo its th care from ppl around us. yea tts th most important thing yea. even now, i wanna care. really tt care. xcept fo family i mean.
i guess it's my turn to be loved&cared.
so, giv me time, i wont reject tt clear.

yeaa, so, gna pause fo moment fo pics.... ......
yayy, lets see who th lucky ones~

20th~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SERENE! <3

yea, right @th back~ , white specs. obvious? yea pretty (:
May Wish Your Dreams & Wishes Come True&Real&Random! HAHA (:
yea, she's pretty, cute, sweet&Random okay~
soso, she gna stay cheerful~
stay pretty~
stay random~
and yea, her studies in th class is goood ~ so continue work hard okay~
im sure, you da next one go woooooo up to th express one! ((:
soso <3ya (:

21th
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAYCE! <3

May Wish Your Wishes appear lik so real tt you always dream!

yea, i know who you been dreaming~ hahaha!

yea, tomoro ask me th same question you always do&i'll giv you a belated surprise alrights (:

trust me, no more fool okay ~

soso, stay cheerful okay sweetie (:

dun b overconfident nor no confident okay ~

you've potential im sure okay. more den me im more sure alright :D

:3ya pretty (:

okay, i realise, my post are all abt bday post.

which is, my blog is fo bday? so its gna b lik bday blog? haaa.

yeaa. see how kind am i yeaa.

yea, so say yeaa with me. pull it longer if possible okay.

so , today, racial harmony day.

so, went sag road with so superb few ppl.

@1st really dun feel lik going when see TT so 'much' amount of ppl going. &tot seriously gna b bored without them around bt didnt xpect tt much tt luckily, gloria's going and so we'd lots of fun!

really fun! hahaha! so damn freaking funny ! disturbing others, making our jokes, laughing lik wadeveranything alr~

how i wish , jus every single min, hour, even sec im like tis. tis way, life best~

really, life best. life'll b th bestest in tis way seriously. full of laughter.

bt not. life dun work tis way. seriously it doesnt. cos every single min, we've our mood, they've their mood. and when spread&mix tgt, our life jus boomed with anger alr. so tts why, its suck lik majority ppl say.

okay, im done.

& woooo~ LESLEY!

i know you th best? serious? or you action only? haaa~

why izzit everytime is in tis way?

why?

im asking, why?

珍惜眼前

2010-07-17T23:56:00.001+08:00

yea, so wait, wait.

teachers, parents, wait.

make me fall.

den i'll giv you pride.

haaa!

not a simple task you see cos nowadays i jus hate my handwriting no matter how hard im concentrating!

really!

i have a short attention span cos of tis? mayb?

i like to distract th class cos of tis? mayb?

i lik sleep in th class cos of tis ? mayb?

i dun draw tt much alr cos of tis? mayb?

i dun care abt th studies and work cos of tis? mayb?

i dun write so much cos of tis? mayb?

i dun give a damn cos if tis? mayb?

i always haaa&laaaa cos of tis? mayb?

haaaa! comeon. bad influence, bad influence.

so always tell yourself, your handwriting is nice and im loving it, and yes, you're loving it.

bt now im not.

pen & pencil.

we're not frens.

they're bestfrens, bt im not with them.

we've parted~

bt they'll b back dont they?

if not, paper are still my fren yea haaa

tts why, sometimes nice sometimes not, are th paper fault.

haa rhymthes? yea it rhymthes. rhymthes lik how eminem does his lyrics yea.

bt im not tt strong lik him, every word, every sentence rhymthes. cos as you see im not tt clever. bt im talented LOL

dun 'cheyyyy' me lik wad they did cos i'll 'ah fake' giv you bak, jus lik wad shaffhia taught me.

yea i know i learn things ver fast cos wad its in my head are jus rubbish bin.

so lets BIN IN lik wad government told us to do so & we're cool yea.

and yea, homework turn into trash, lik wad fatin's tumbler said.

yea, so obviously my mind is filled with rubbish as i'd been talking alot of rubbish alr.

okay todaytoday,

had fun yea HAD FUN!

fun until they all makes cake while im so concentrating!

haahaa~

jokes~

so with LESLEY, JOCELIN&SHARLEEN~

bt still fun ~ hahaha!

and im so sorry duck! your shoe HAHA

th cake is nice so tt lucky person mus b freak lucky ~

soso mondaymonday, lets see who th lucky one ~ haaa!

mus b real touched okay haaa

okay, im alil lazy to type alr.

yeayea, tomoro k okay? hahaha~ cant wait (:

forget th plan

Shouldnt Turn to be Like Tis

2010-07-15T23:48:00.001+08:00

yea, tts th steps im taking.

always on it.

always stepping each step up&down.

bt until now, i still cant reach th top.

i dunno why.

im falling right down on th bottom now.

make it as tomoro up to th 1st, 2nd step & 3rd, 4th.. 5th.. 6th.. 7th....

today's not my day.

absolutely not my freaking day.

im not myself, so im sorry

im not laughing as always

im not smiling as always

im not looking as always

im not behaving as always

im not doing my things as always

im not bloody hell myself as always

i tink i'vent got enough sleep~

moodswing? comeon, no.

i been thinking today

i been faking today

i been trying today

i been doing today

i been throwing today

i been weird today

i been bloody hell not myself today.

bt i learnt sth today.

i not yet know too.

until my search success.

all i can say is, today jus not me

all i can say is, im sorry

all i can say is, its my probs

all i can say is, i suck today

all i can say is, im weird today, yea i know

all i can say is, all on above equal to im not happy today, simple.

i fell again.

no, not i did not.

yes, i did.

bt im gna make it jus tt lil while.

i fell,

bt confident pull me up& move me on b4

im gna search wads next to make me move on.

not gna b confident again, cos tts th ending i know.

im not gna fall, cos wad im searching will make me go on.

bt i'll fall, if i search nth anymore

its okay, i understand

Tis Post Dedicated to.. Lesley? haaa!

2010-07-14T22:50:00.000+08:00

okay! tts sososo overduuuuuuuue ~
Chinese Garden with theeeeeeeeeem ~

okay ! tis is nice~
yeaa! so really hav lots of fun on tt day!
took lotsof pics lik ard 200++? isnt it?
& our post&pattern is seriously funny! hahah!
yayyy ~ long lost nobody business alr!
okay great! (:

okay, really, really, hist test was BOOMED
maths test today was WUUUUUU
english teacher changed today was BOOOO
netball seniors today was WOOOOOOO
so today is absolutely BOOOWOOO~
yeaa~
okay, let me jus briefly describe wad i do&done~ cos i completely forget WHEN i do or done yea haaa~

soso, went SEOULGARDEN on i tink monday ~ hahahaha! wrong idiots! is JACK PLACEE~ hahaha!
so yea ~ went JACKPLACE with ALVINA&CRYSTAL&SHITING JIEJIE&5GU!

yeaa lunch! so, thnks 5gu fo th treating yea hahaha! (:
talkedlaughedmakefun is lik soooo funny! hahahs!

so sorry didnt finished my food as im alr full aft th soap. i duno why. HAHAHA 2pid! is soup! not soap! yea so you gna tell me aft you bath you're full? no way! unless you drink th water yea+th soap as th ingrediant yea. so yea aft th soup okay.

soso aft tt went AHMA house fo awhile to hav our dinner! i can hardly eat much alr! cos im alr so full! ; nid went home early to get my ENGLISH COMPO done man! or else ima dead~

& aft tt lost 2kg of vomitting, im sososososososofreaking scared alr! seriously! th feeling jus ssssssuck ~ seriously it is! okay, tis jus taught me a lesson okay. tis lesson is, 'not to b greedy' okay. fo wadever it is! cos th 'music' is tis man! can jus hardly sleep on tt freaking nite! wokeup more den twice thrice jus trying to BRRRRRRRRUUUU~
bt NTH came out! until dunno when woooo~ everything out & tt feeling jus kills me!

okay angry time!
im angry!
cos tt seller waste my time! LOL
fan wo ge zhi . tmd ~
its okay~ i know she didnt mean it haa! see ima kind! wooot~ agree with me 100%ly yea? hahahaha! *thiiickskin~*

oh she haven reply my msg! comeon! reply! dun fan wo duo yi ge ge zhi man! or else ima gna kil you~
hahaha! jokerrr ~ how can i definitely kill her! cos i din even see her b4 man! i only got her number, heard her voice, and yea, im not a detective or wadever okay! so, she's luckyyyyy~ hahahah~

&
thnks LESLEY ~ fo letting me in your house jus fo tt lil while. yea jus tt lil while HAHA!
& yea LESLEY, im so sorry fo today's ignorance okay! i really didnt hear! & yeaa ~ waiting fo your gummy b4 your kitkat you NUGGET! HAHA!

okay, i still wanna M.Kong okay.

@least jokes or wadever on it.

bt tis one, its completely totally boring! precisely!

tts why! LESSON IS BORING!

bt FATIN is funny! HAHHA!

&ANNI!

tts my secret! shhhhhhhhhhhh! hahahah! funny sia ! (: thnks anyway ~

soso, todaytodaytooooday~

NETBALL!

was completely photogenic!

every min! every sec! we've got th BIG CANON delighting you always camera there fo us, snapping shots!

soso, professional photographer is... yea, CAYCE&FATIN~ ! hahaha!

so, wadever we do, we've to look @th camera! make sure we were nice on th picccccc!

jus lik WHOLECUP! M.Kong did mention~ they'll keep looking up @th bigbig screen every min every sec whether they're caught in th TV! & tt LESLEY said TEEVEE sounds cuter. soso, if they're in, they'll makemakemake their hair alil even they're in th court playing! comeon! its field! tis is WHOLECUP! LOL WORLDCUP la duuuh ~ WORLDCUP! = FOOTBALL! not BBALL,NETBALL,FLOORBALL,YOURBALL! okay!

okay, so today, yesyes, i am, i am laughing lik mad! always&always, tt hidayah,shafila&FATIN okay! superb funny they're okay!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHA!

superbbbbbbbbb FUNNY ! JOCELIN!

today! lots of joker! & tis JOKER is so accidently being a JOKER bt tt make me cant forget & im laughing lik CRAZY!

she's so urgent fo toilet & den..... .................. ~

her way!

her style!

her pattern!

her shoe!

HER FALL!

all i can say is..

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!

alrights,

cant wait fo my next post!

cos it gna b cool~

catch up with my blog!

hahaha~

im clever, arent i? haa~

luring ppl to my blog?

haa yea right, lik everyone in th world will come lidat hahaa. if i really feel tis, i guess i nid 995 alr~

是我太在意了..

Im being selfish today, im sorry

2010-07-08T21:13:00.000+08:00

today seems weird.

today seems not today.

today seems not right.

today im ver tired.

i dunno why.

mayb tis morning kills me.

;woke up tis morning, had terrible backache

i cant even move my bloody body.

suuuuck!

& den tis freaking whole day was superb tired!

jus wish i would jus sleep fo 1lesson, jus 1 period, nice sleep&im good.

bt today's lesson period was effing tight.

history, english; 5,6 period. heeeck!

& yes, ima gna die from tt history test. im sure she gna underline wads th meaning of writing an essay.

drank a coffee, hope im okay tomoro.

so all i can say is today's not me~

okay, so, english's body writing left undone~

maths textbook left uncompleted~

maths test next week~

geo project is nth~

& i still hav alot of days waiting fo me to go thru.

i dun wanna go sch.

i wanna stay @home.

tts best.

okay, I WANNA SING K! yea, gna do it next week~

singoutloud! tts th main point! suddenly feel tt been long time im not laughing lik nobody business. yea, today whole day i didnt. cos i been sleeping~ been in my wonderland. so asked me wad im doing today, i'll tell you nth.

heck, okay rubbishrubbish.

comes to birthday post again! yayyy cheer it comeon. see who th lucky ones~

5th!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MINI AUNTY! <3

May Wish Your Dreams Come TTTruue & Sweet okay!<3

okay, so tis crazy been thinking lateeely~

promise me! dun b lik boy okay! i'll kill you!

dun tink much!

so not lik you alr you suckerrr!

stay cheerful~

stay pretty~

stay on yourself! & you're special~ :D

& tis crazy, my tears are ALWAYS on her shirt! HAHA!

cos everytime she's th only one who knows how am i~ wad am i been doing~ even if i trying to b shhhhhhhh~ haaa how clever she is~ (:

go&fix your phone you chicken!

no light alr still can tahan, i oso tabueytahan alr see you use lidat ~ haaa!

okay, have to thnks her, serious one.

yes, i treat her lik my really BESTFREN! bt not any outsider or wadever you wanna tink ~

she's going bak during dec & not coming back & i'll DEFINATELY MISS HER!

so far, she's th BEST!

she earn trust from everyone! soso, could you? hahaha! she's strong in tis point baby! ((:

&guess wad!

she's th one who molested me! HAHA! cos remember i broke my wrist~ she helped me alotalotalot of things even now~ so thnks you <3~

yesterday~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MONKEY! <3

May Wish Your ALL Dreams Come Reaaaal True&Pretty alrights!

okay!

stay pretty!

stay cheerful!

stay funny!

stay playful!

alrights!

continue thinking all sorts of 2pidcrazy or mayb you wan dip2yzarc HAHA your idea~ your idea~!

ooopps ~ or monkey, mayb should i post your birthday post pic, tt facial one? HAHAHAH! you'll scream & kill me if you see tis HAHA! looks so diputs~ hahahaha! funny~

soso, im soon gna asked you out fo a K~ sing w me you diputs! haaaaa!

&yea, you gna come right infront of me & dig my heart dont ya~ HAHA!

okay,

& on 3rd~

went aaahma's house fo a steaaaaaaamboat!

alll went CRAZY~

haha! all went crazzzzzy lik in clubbbbb~ ahhaha! when troublemaker song started playyying ~

okay, ALVINA JIEJIE!

cheerscheers! dun tink much alrights! Stay happy! :D

Lesley~

yes, Smile! Dun waste your today without smiling you nugget! (:

oh, im gna post chinesegarden th nexttime.

im lazy now.

mood not right too.

been 2 years, still not yet free.

im not liking it.

jus telling you.

not used to it.

din wanna too.

why?

2010-07-04T17:50:00.001+08:00

eff..\
pleased everyone isnt a simple thing to do.

disadvantage is always you.

effing hell.

its my life. why am i hav to pleased everyone when im jus suppose to pleased myself & those ppl i care fo?

prick.

dun treat me tt important when i didnt treat you importantly. pls, jus pls.

所以我...

2010-07-04T00:16:00.004+08:00

thats th light im finding in my blues

yeaaaa!
great!
guess wad!?
so wad've you been guessing?
NOTHING! yeaa! absolutely!
so if i ever ask you, GUESS WAD!? pls jus ans me nth cos im trying to b NOTHING! yeaa tts right!

& yeaaa~ i post my blog okay LESLEY!
tis PRETTY NUGGET keep complaining im not been posting ~ haaa!

yeaa, normal, so normal ~ &i dun wanna go schhhhhhh :X
i still wanna my holiday siaaaaaaaaaa! see tt sia? yeaa FATIN! without tt l cos its different meaning! i dunno till tis SWEETIE told me! gooood~ & yayyyyy~ now! im proud of myself! cos i know how to click notification @myfacebook! WOOOOOOOOOOOO! yeaa! tis SWEETIE is prooooud of me too! HAHA!
okay, its actually ver embarrassing to know sia & sial is different & dunno click till now.

yeayea, dun tease me okay. cos i didnt mean it man! how would you know when you 1st speak SIAL/SIA & 1st time signup fo facebook! HAHAH!

oh FATIN SWEETIE ~ dun rub your eyes too hard next time hahah! freaking bored onnnn fri ~ seriouslyyyy! haaaa! <3

soso, @one of th chinese lesson, we were doing dumbling you see.
its freaking.. OMfG
BORED!

yea, i dun lik it la so cant blame :X
here some pics tooked. haaa! 2pid! dun learn th wrong english grammer from my blog you see. past tense of take is took & present tense of took is take. so wads th past tense of took? & th present tense of take? pls tel me. cos im learning. still learning gammer~ den how abt th future tense of take&took? tooking? taking? taked? there's past,present,future, how abt th oppsite? why didnt have th oppsite tense? mus balance you see. so its ... ekat? koot? dekoot? dekat?
wth, gammer its hard you see. haaa, comeon actually is easy! jus listen in class & key into your mind! & you know all! those talking crap here saying gammer is hard & wadever tooked tt person wrote, yea exactly, tt person din listen in class&din key into her mind cos she jus brought locker.

okay, NBALL ~
HIDAYAH&SHAFILA is superbsuperbseriouslyvery funny! HIDAYAH @th last time is so ento till she fall lik crazy&funnily hahaha!
tis 2 seniors is really crazyy ~ haa!

okay, ciaosx

>
i told mummy,
im stress,
im stress tt i dun wanna go to sch.
mummy told me to ignored.
yea, trying to.
now, im gna do wad i wanna do at tt point of time, i'll jus do it.
continuous? ; wont care
slowly, im used to it
and den it means nothing.

>
out of tis year, im free.

Bad Sleep

2010-06-27T14:47:00.008+08:00

being woken up by sth reallyreally unpleasant & felt dejected aft it.

it'll giv me a detrimental effect aft tis im sure.

not a good one i guess.

so being woken abt tt ard 8+, lucky enough, able to sleep bak till 10.

dreams are not always a good one you see.

sweet one, bt tt jus a dream

bad one, make you feel lik tis.

th feeling is not good.

not @all.

cos im too afraid.

too stress.

too worry

too no confidental

too not myself

too & too & too..

1st time, so afraid..

___________

yea ~

yesterday, webcamed with LESLEY & yea, its superb funny ~

shiiiit ~

its gna b th ver last day of tt connected June holidayyyyyyy!

omgomgomgggggg, i dunwanna it to end TT fast okay!

hecckkk! i dun wanna sch starts!

its gna b tiring~

its gna b stress ~

my time gna b tighttttt~

goshhhhh~ &yea, PEIYU said who th hell likes sch hahhaha!

i used to :X bt not now!

&yeaa~ LESLEY! gna miss time on maple~ gna miss my sleeps till 11++ ~ gna miss late goodnites @ard 11++ too!

mygodmygoddddd!

why th helll 1month past TT fas!

looking forward fo th next month of holiday BT its gna b lik.... alot of things gna happen thru these months to th next month of holiday!

xample~

gna take exam!

gna do tis do tt!

scarly got probs thru these days we dun even know!

your face may b different!

your body may change!

your skin may become darker!

you may become taller!

you may become naughtier!

you may become you may become you may become ALIEN! shittttt!

lazylazylazy&lazyyyyy!

everyone is alr i gues!

soso now quick! go weight! go weight wads your weight is & tell me!

see how much you've GROWN thru these holidays manzxc! if not you've no attraction thru ppl ard you alr ~ haaa!

keep tt body yeaa ~ hhahaha!

i'll tell you mine if ya tell me yours~

GOGO!