Cherish And Treasure

Whats wrong with me?
Monday, March 29, 2010

heck.
i feel so fool
i feel so 2pid
i feel so retarded
i feel so idiot
i feel lik shit right now
i feel ver tired right now
i feel lik dying right now
serious.
so serious.
hate it
i hate th feeling.
wads wrong?
sucks.
so sucks. serious.
i tot im okay.
i tot im alright
i tot i smile and everything will b alright
wads wrong?
wads th eff wrong with me?
th pressure?
th life road?
or th true you?

cos things are not th same that i xpected.
jus lik jus now.

tot tomoro will b best.
jus hope.
bt today,
dream appear.
flooding memories.
im so scared to b alone
im so scared of every blink of my eyes.
your memories with us, image, your face, appear, flash thru.
not tt i wanna forget you. i wont forever wont cos you're so important and part of my life.
jus tt i'll cry. i'll cry. cos i really miss you. th longer you're away, th more misses we hav.

and now
i cant even know who am i
trying to figure out who & where am i
so hard.
i wanna find myself bak.
bt im rushing
bt im running.
wad am i afraid of?
i dunno

im losing to th world verver soon.
pick myself bak, win again.

mayb should do wad Alvina jiejie said, find sometime, find some place, tink everything alone. figure&sort it out one by one and i'll b alright.

thnks Alvina jiejie fo these few days <3

yesterdayesterday~
went pasiris to cycle with ALVINA JIEJIE them!
really hav lotsof fun (:
<3 yas!

nite!
went to eat at jurong west tgt
hahas so great(:

went home, quickly, fastest speed to complete my eng report; forgotten :x
lucky enough hav my babe FATIN remind me or else im gna so deadddddddd~ bt today, M.Kong din come fo lesson so its lik ............ ..... .......... yea......... .......

todaytodayttttoday~
lesson on as usual.
chatted with ChowXun and looks lik we both really hav t same feeling fo your 'someone' and my 'someone' yea? HAHA! really. jiayou kor okay! im sure you can d one day (: i know its really ver hard bt im sure you can okay and b happy hahas! (: totally agree its reallyreally tired.

matched with Perice ss and their attitude were lik damn shitintoilet~
lax all okay~ cheersL

chatted with M.Goh with alots of sports&life feeling stuffffffffffffffffffffffff and sucks.
sth jus not go to how i xpected.

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jus wanna spend tomoro to who i wanna spend with and wad i wanna do.
tis make me best.
hope so&mayb.

DoNe || 7:35 PM